Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Life Sure Can Be Depressing

In a late news flash they are thinking of reconsidering their vote on net neutrality.  I guess they've been flooded with mail disagreeing with their decision.  Congress is voting on a whole lot of things including the dream act.  Trump almost acts as if he's open to keeping the dream act for the children of illegals.  But Trump can turn around on a dime just like Steve Bannon did about that book out last week.  Now he's praising Jered Kushner and Donald Trump Jr.  Politics is turning into one big soap opera where the authors of the thing can't decide what plot-line they want to go with.  Do the good guys win?  In good news it's over fifty degrees in Chicago these days after a nearly two week deep freeze.  


Last Thursday the room was cleaned for bugs and they were alone in here for hours.  I have discovered another item missing.  It’s that ceramic square picture thing I got as a gift one Christmas.  You add this to the TV manual and the fire exit map, and also the two calendars, and my missing confirmation number and Chase bank statement and two store receipts with my balance on it, plus a Christmas card or two.  

Last night it was the ABC network news and Jeopardy and a dash of “Wheel of Fortune”.  The medication line was long and lasted well past seven thirty.   Earlier Bill wanted me to go to the bakery and buy a pack of four cinnamon rolls for a dollar, and Bill gave me the dollar.  Bill ended up giving me two of the rolls.  But Bill got sick from the other two rolls, or maybe it was the two packaged burritos he ate.  Bill says he felt really sick.  Later after seven thirty he wanted me to go to the store and get him a can of Sprite for 75 cents and he let me keep the quarter.  It didn’t help.  Bill got into an argument with Kathy out in the front lobby.  Bill told me that he doesn’t want to lie down and go to sleep because “I feel so sick now I’m afraid if I sleep I won’t wake up”.   Apparently he wanted to go to the hospital but the ambulance was really late in arriving.  We watched NCIS and then that “Bull” show”.   After nine Bill left the room and I went to bed at twenty after nine, not knowing whether Bill would be right back.  I heard Denise come in soon after this to get the laundry.  I hope Bill gets the treatment he needs. 

[material deleted here] I lay in bed and got up at five o clock and showered and made myself instant coffee.  It must have rained again last night because the benches were still wet.  I turned on the Bill Press show since Bill wasn’t here to talk about the TV news.  Leah did the morning medication again.  Normally Ricardo does the medication Tuesday and Wednesday mornings.  Today I got cough medicine.  The Stephanie Miller show came on.  Denise returned the laundry at a quarter to seven.  Everything was there, but I had to figure with last Thursday in mind and which clothes I wore longer and which ones I didn’t.  I wanted to get coffee at the store but Ben wasn’t ready yet.  It was kind of a lousy breakfast.  The oatmeal was late and mine already had milk on it and it was cold and really lumpy.  It tasted strange.  The sausage patty was cold.  We had a crescent with butter pats.  Jerry let me have her sausage.  At least the coffee was hot.  I went back out to the store and got a large cup of coffee for a dollar and a quarter and took it too my room.  I opened the shades.  One thing is Bill always likes it so gloomy with the shades closed so he can sleep or something.  I was in better spirits after drinking the coffee but I woke depressed about the way my whole life is now.

Last night’s program got me to thinking about what a joy it is to have kids and see them grow up right and say “I accomplished something”.  I think to some degree most every Born Again Christian by necessity has to live a double life and compartmentalize things.  But if they grow up wrong or have severe mental problems it’s a different story.  Of course like with Princess Charolette it’s amazing to see a child come into their own developmental personality and how it exciting it is to see them learn things.  The next program was about a guy who had gotten psychotherapy and went out and wasted two people with a gun.   And the people picking the jury wanted people who were analytical able to detach objective “reality” from emotion.  Of course what they are really looking for is a bunch of cold hearted robots who vote the way they are brainwashed to do. 

Now you not only have sloppy Steve but sneaky Dianne.  Dianne Feinstein on her own released some controversial material on President Trump.  I’m not sure whether it has to do with the Russian prostitutes.   Bill Press talked about this on his show.  Stephanie also talked about Trump’s activities.  In the old days like say 2012 I’d be doing long paragraphs about President Trump right now but I just don’t have the energy to do that these days.   We all need to just scan the news ourself and form our own oppinions.  There is a lot of talk about invoking the 25th amendment, which is more of a pipe dream than anything else. 


I actually made morning snacks for the first time in a while.   Jennifer brought Gabby today and she was wandering around the courtyard searching for food.  I got a lemonade and a graham cracker from Valerie.  I called Judy just now and she was a little puzzling.  She said the reason why Mom was restless before in the hospital was because of the drugs she had been given.  I asked her whether Mom was mobile in a wheel chair going outdoors or anything and Judy said no.  I asked when Mom would get back to her apartment and Judy didn’t see that happening.  I asked what would happen to all her stuff.   The whole issue about Mom possibly having stage four metastatic cancer of the spine was left unresolved.  Either she does or she doesn’t and someone needs to find out because it has profound implications.  It’s almost as if they know she does have cancer but nobody wants to think about it.  

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